Things That Suck & Things That Don’t

Mar 28

Sucks:

Toronto transit workers are threatening to strike if they don’t get a raise. More union BS. The current fare is $2.25, and may increase to $3.00. That increase was announced before the strike.

Doesn’t Suck:

At least spring has finally arrived – if I have to walk to work, I won’t get snowed on.

Doesn’t Suck:

Tomorrow is a holiday (yay!) and Kaine’s 6th birthday party (also yay!).

I ran into an old client on the subway; he gave me his card and offered me the possibility of some freelance. I can’t decide if that sucks or not.

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Because I Don’t Always Sing Songs About My Dog

Mar 28

I WILL ALWAYS DO

The time is now to tell you that I’m glad

the time is now to say you always shine

in the sunny side of me

I took off all past pictures from the wall

now you’re by my side and I know

what I was looking for

Don’t you scream and don’t you cry

don’t you ever say good bye

wait for me, I’ll wait for you

yeah, I will always do

Don’t you scream and don’t you cry

pretty soon we’ll be allright

wait for me, I’ll wait for you

yeah, I will always do

I’m gonna be sad no more

as long as you’ll be my girl

The last love song that I’m gonna sing

if I’d lose you I’d lose evrything

the last love song, there’ll be no more

I won’t love another girl

Don’t you scream and don’t you cry

pretty soon we’ll be allright

wait for me, I’ll wait for you

yeah, I will always do

I’m gonna be sad no more

as long as you’ll be my girl…

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I love Maggie

Mar 26

Suicide Machines

Sometimes I Don’t Mind

There’s something with the way you walk

There’s something there that lights a spark inside of me

And it makes me want to sing

Makes me forget everything

There’s something there inside your eyes

Lets me know you’d never lie

You fill me up and I know what you need

Do you know what you mean to me?

Well I watch you sleep sometimes

And it feels like the first time

And you’re always on my mind

Everyday is like the first day

And I talk to you sometimes

Even though you never talk back

And I buy you things sometimes

‘Cause I don’tmind

There’s something strange, I can’t get mad

Even when you’re being bad – just look at me, and

I forget everything

I try but I can’t be mean

You sit by me and I scratch your back

You lick my hands then I get a rash, but that’s okay

Because we, we are a team

You make a mess and then I clean

Well I watch you sleep sometimes

And it feels like the first time

And you’re always on my mind

Everyday is like the first day

And I talk to you sometimes

Even though you never talk back

And I buy you things sometimes

‘Cause I don’tmind

There’s something with the way you act

Makes me laugh when you chase the cats

You chase ‘em around

And when it’s close to feeding time, you stare at me and whine

You won’t lay down, you’ll hardly sit

I give you a bath when you smell like shit

But you don’t mind

And we go out every now and then

And when you’re done then we come back in

Well I watch you sleep sometimes

And it feels like the first time

And you’re always on my mind

Everyday is like the first day

And I talk to you sometimes

Even though you never talk back

And I buy you things sometimes

‘Cause I don’tmind

Yeah I don’t mind

Yeah I don’t mind

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I Know How It Feels

Mar 26

“I’m afraid of so many things lately. But it’s a strange kind of fear, sort of detatched from me, like my fear is this backpack I’m carrying but I can take it off every so often and not feel it at all, and then when I have it, I only feel it sort of on the outside of myself.”

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Procrastinator’s Prison

Mar 25

Jody always makes jokes about being sent to debtors prison… well, I’ll be sending morse code messages with my mirror from across the river in procrastinator’s prison soon enough. I’ve just been neglecting alot of things, including people. I’ve been so damn tired in the morning. I’m starting to think that I’m a bit depressed.

The thing about me and depression is that unless it’s really severe, I ignore it. I push it to the back of my head and let it manifest in other ways; neglect, procrastination, phobia of checking phone messages. Yes, phone messages.

This is my newest thing. When I came back from Houston, I finally broke down and dialed the old 2100-367. 29 unheard messages. Freelance clients looking for work to be done, long lost friends, my mom, urgent calls to the wrong number. So then I find myself thinking, how stupid am I? Why the hell can’t I check my messages? In the midst of beating myself up I realize: something’s getting me down.

Limbo. Those who know me well, know that my life is sinking further into limbo. I’m not going to go into details, except to say that I really want to do something. Unfortunately, it could all be in vain, or a big waste… all because of limbo. The stupid waiting game. Why change things when things are going to change at any moment?

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Who Are You and What Do You Want?

Mar 22

People are searching for me online. By my name, my nick, my city and even by the name of my employer. I got an IM from Brian yesterday, and a comment from Jody today.

*boggle*

If you find me, you won’t see anything about work… with the exception of my union rant. I don’t flame my coworkers or my boss and especially not my company. So if you want to read my rather boring weblog, I guess you should go right ahead.

For future reference, it’s been discovered that the best way to find the site is to search my first and last name. Who woulda thunk?

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I Saw the Flowers Blooming and Then It Snowed

Mar 21

Today I got into a debate with a coworker about (of all things) unions. As Smyth can tell you, there is currently an OPSU strike happening in Ontario. OPSU represents most of our provincial gov’t workers, from snowplowers to nurses.

As it happens, the coworker (one of the few that i actually like and respect) is the daughter of 2 union members and is partnered with a labour lawyer. Hmm, good luck on this one, 27. The debate ended due to fundamental differences of opinion. As peaved as I was that the conversation was cut short (which is for the best – I try my damnedest not to engage in such discussions at work), I still felt like I lost due to my lack of knowledge on the topic. Perhaps the co-worker will go home and tell her labour law partner what an idiot I was being, but hopefully she won’t dislike me for my view. Hopefully you won’t either.

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The Fun So Far

Mar 16

I’m having a blast in Houston, as you can imagine. Here’s a list of things we’ve done so far:

1. went for to eat at an Indian buffet

2. drank yummy red wine and watched a Sabbath concert video

3. layed around reading The Hiram Key outloud to John

4. drove out to the George Bush presidential library at Collage Station

5. watched Planet of the Apes

6. made each other delicious dinners and breakfasts every day

7. watched Godzilla vs Mothra: Fight for the Earth on satellite

So, yes, much fun. On the plane, I got to watch The Man Who Wasn’t There, starring Billy Bob Thornton. It was pretty good… expecially for an inflight film.

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See You In a Week

Mar 12

Dayna: give Big Daddy a hug from me

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Nothing But Sleep

Mar 11

Only 2 days until I go to Htown. (/me counts minutes).

Yesterday, in an attempt to clean up, I threw a load of dishes in my dishwasher. One plate had a bunch of lettuce stuck all over it, but I put it on anyway… BIG MISTAKE. 20 minutes later, my kitchen had a river flowing threw it. To make matters worse, the floor in my appartment is angled about 7 degrees so the fiver flowed right into my carpet. Luckily I glanced over and noticed before it got out of hand.

The only thing worse than cleaning up is when it results in more cleaning up.

I still have a giant list of things to do before I go away. Wash Maggie. Buy food for cat and dog. Arrange a car to pick me up and take me to the airport. Finish tidying up. Arrange pick up for Maggie. Etc. I need a vacation from the list making.

What else? Played D&D lat night. I think I aggrivated Nick to no end with my role playing. Once again I misread the start time, so it was sheer luck that i logged in as the game was starting. I had intended to send Matt my level 2 stuff (which I will do at some point) but i missed the time window, so I was reluctant to head off into any huge battles.

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